It's back.

I hate being the bad guy.

... Yet another brave warrior has been taken down by Ewing's Sarcoma. Once again, I feel terrible to say that I was a little late in receiving this news.

It's starting to get a little old, this whole cancer thing. And losing friends to it.

She was smiling up until the end. Even in her final posts, she seems to be doing well and was happy.

I guess we always want people to think we're "fine." We have to put on that brave face, even when we are scared to death.

There are few people that I was honest with about my treatments and such. Recently I discovered that I even made a habit out of lying to myself about my illness and treatments. You just want to be strong for everyone.

I am so thankful to have the health resources that I have. I have an amazing doctor, great nurses, the best medical technology available. Unfortunately, many are not as lucky as I am.

As of today, I am four months off chemo. I guess I completed chemo the same day Sharon died... She had just started a new chemotherapy drug. I don't really know what happened, but it saddens me nonetheless. She was so strong. Rest in peace, Sharon.


I had an MRI today. I have a CT scan next week. I'm hoping for clear scans. I've been feeling really good the past few months, but there's always that fear that the disease will return. I really hope that I am done with it. I am so fed up with all of this cancer stuff. I hate cancer so much.

I will try to start writing here again. I've been a bit busy lately. I haven't been feeling well enough to be busy in a very long time, so it's kind of nice. I'm doing a lot more and feeling much better these days. I hope these days will continue.

I'm nervous about the scans and what is to come, but I am very hopeful. I will be fine. I am always fine, I suppose.

Hope you all have a good weekend.