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Friday, 25 December 2009

Scrooge

I can't into the Christmas spirit today. I'm trying, but it's just not working. This is so weird.

Hope you all have a good day.

Merry Christmas!

Monday, 21 December 2009

Snow Day

It's snowing...

When you were little, did you sneak peaks out your window late at night to see if it's still snowing? Y'know, the night before a big presentation, project, or essay was due? Or maybe just a school day that you expected to be particularly icky? I know I did! And if I couldn't see out the window, I would sneak into the kitchen, turn on the porch light, and hope to see some snow action through the blinds. I was quite the little insomniac on nights like that.

Tonight is going to be similar to those. I keep looking out my window, hoping to see inches of accumulation and big, beautiful, ivory flakes falling from the sky.

Not quite there yet. But I will not give up hope! I never did when I was little and I won't start now! A snow day is possible!

C'mon sky! Make tomorrow a snow day! ... Please?

I really do not want to go to the hospital tomorrow. I would much rather spend my day playing in the snow .
Head tumor's not getting any bigger, nor smaller. The doctor's taking that as a sign that the chemo is working. I won't complain about it even though I really wish it would have shrunk down a little. It was only my first round, though. There's time.

They found a spot on the left side of my pelvic bone. It's small, and they don't really know what it is yet, but... It's still a spot. They're going to keep an eye on it. I guess I may be in store for both head and pelvic radiation at the same time coming up here in 2010. Hooray.

I almost got out of my eye doctor appointment, then got a call that they were doing me a "favor" getting me in tomorrow as it is. The oncologist said I didn't have to go tomorrow, but would like it done within the next month. Unfortunately, they're all booked up, so I don't have much of a choice. Unless it's snowing like crazy. Mom says she's not driving in the snow, heh. PLEASE SNOW! I would appreciate not having to drive all the way down there for a tiny little eye exam when I'm going to be there next week anyway.

I did some Christmas shopping today and bought more presents. I also ran into a friend of mine at the pet store. Random, but awesome. I haven't seen her in ages so that was really cool.

I'm going to try to convince Dad that we need to get Mom a new puppy for Christmas. Not sure how that will go over, but I'm definitely giving it a shot. Mom said she wanted one! It has nothing to do with the fact that I want one. Nope. (She really did say to look into it though, and I am more than happy to).

... I want it to feel like Christmas. I haven't had any time to get in the Christmas spirit, and I'm not going to have time this year. Christmas is my favorite holiday, and I'm nowhere near excited, happy, anything I'm normally feeling around this time. I've been too busy with other things to really acknowledge it. I hope Christmas Eve and Christmas Day are filled with lots of Christmasness because this makes me really sad.

Oh, and my counts. As for my counts, I have to take my medicine for two more days. I guess it could be worse, right? Sigh. I'm so tired of this and I just started . No wonder people usually opt to just "treat" the cancer at this point... Why must I be so stubborn?

Anyway.

Wish me luck on the puppy thing! I'll talk to you all later!

Sunday, 20 December 2009

And

Scan results tomorrow.
Ah!
I hope it's good news.

And I hope my counts are up tomorrow. I would love to have a little time off that icky medicine. Body, why aren't you cooperating this time?!

And an eye doc appointment on Tuesday that I don't want to go to. Brings back awful, awful, horribly sad memories.

And why must life be so confusing and hard? Does it get easier as you go or is it always complicated? I guess I still have a lot to learn, huh? I never learned anything the easy way. Why start now?

Hope you guys had a good weekend. Talk to you tomorrow. Bye!